Catastrophe By The Beating Machine

‘I am happy!  I am smiling.  Stretch it a bit more and say hello to the World! –
I kept on muttering to myself
Trying to fool the beating machine inside me.

I heard laughter in return,
Laughter followed by screams
And disbalance  and tears.

The beating machine is turning lethal with every tick of the clock…
Overpowering my brain,
Overpowering me.
Destroying my patience and self esteem, Catastrophe it bleeds.