I hate you.
I wish I had never met you
Never returned your smile,
Never looked into your eyes for more.
I sing songs of moving on and falling in love again,
I advice the broken hearts to tear the pages that hold them back
And buy new ones for the old ones were not worth their expression.
But there are times when I cheat myself,
When I sit listening to songs that remind of you,
Alone while no-one’s home
Pouring whiskey to my pain
And tears breakthrough
My arms searching for your embrace
And my soul running all four directions for its long lost home.
I cry. I cry a lot.
But no one pays heed to my distorted sniffs,
No one looks into my pained eyes,
No one consoles me.
I sit and play all the memories of us,
Of the PAST….
The past I claim to have left behind.
The very thought of you makes me cry,
It aches me to think of the moments we shared,
And the moments I dreamt of sharing with you.
They torture me.
They make me cry like there is no end to my misery.
I want to forget you,
Dispose off all the memories
But instead I end up cooking them into little tarts
And eat them one by one,
Relishing all that once I had tasted before with you.
I feel the pain of losing you all over again.
Over and over
Only to never forget the face I had once touched
The lips I had kissed,
The laughter I loved to hear to,
And all of the time we spent together.
I miss you.
I miss you to remember you,
So your lost images never miss a fraction of its beauty to my mind.
I miss you to live all the moments that flood my existence
Only to remember your smiling face
Every time I begin to drown.
Just wow π
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Glad you liked it. Thank you! βΊ
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I keep finding myself coming back to this amazing piece of writing!! I feel like I can relate to this so much and I think that’s why I keep reading it over again and again. Thanks for sharing it!
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Oh my godπππππthis is making me so emotional right now. I am so so so happy to know that my words touched your soul. I am glad. Thank you for the honour (yes this is an honour).
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That’s so sad…
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Well, at least the whiskey wasn’t bad. ππ¬
Thank you for reading!ππ
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Do you think it’s better shared? I like a little myself sometimes. π
Pleasure to read…
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Share whiskey? Nah, I like to drink without any distraction or disturbance. But at times the madness is boosted when shared. π
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I know what you mean… Whiskey is a thinking drink..
Madness? You know me then? Lol
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Haha. π
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Sanity keeps well away from me lol
I like to be unique π
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That’s how every human should be. Unique and natural.
βΊ
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That means that being unique and a bit goofy makes me normal.
Kinda weird that π
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The world is tasteless without a little punch. So yeah you are equally important for the existence of your fellow mates.
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As are you Fusion (I suspect that’s not your name, but it’s cool if it is)
What makes you… You?
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“Fusion beats” is my blog name. My name is Tanushree Karmakar.
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Cool blog name and your real name is also pretty amazing. π
How come the alien face though? Does that have meaning?
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Because when I look around I cannot connect to the humans around me and that’s why The Alien (which I refer to my alien soul).
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Oh I see. I can relate to that, sometimes the human race baffles me and I just want to hide from it. So I can understand.
Is that why you blog so you can try and relate?
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No, I blog to express.
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Like frustration etc?
I hope you don’t mind if you’ve made a friend π
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Not just the negativity, every emotion I feel, I write it.
I am happy to talk. πππππ
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That must be a lot of writing!
Cool πππππ
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I am too lazy. So I just stick to writing poems.
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That’s ok… Each to their own right?
You’re good… I must read more
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Now that makes me happy! Thank you. βΊ
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I’m happy yo make you happy π
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Beautifully described about a heartbroken person….I can find so much of similarity with my life….. Let promise not to Fall in love again, rather rise in Love…..
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Yes. Rise and raise in love.
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Great poem!! π
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Thank you so much for reading my words. πππ
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My pleasure.
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My pleasure π
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Beautiful description of the numbing pain that heartbreak can cause.
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Thank you so much reading and leaving a hearty comment that just made my day.
Good day to you..πππ
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